3 Months Post Onset

It has been 3 months since Jonny left.  Does it feel like that long?  No.  It feels like much longer, like I am living my life in slow motion, like everything I do requires an uphill surge.  And once I make it to the top of the hill, it's just one more day done, and sleep brings me back down to the bottom of the hill again.  I do know that at some point, I will look back over the hills I tackled, and think, "wow, that wasn't so bad."  Kind of like having a baby.  In the thick of it you say, "Never, never, never again will I possibly put myself through so much pain."  Then you have momma's lapse, and you say, "hmmmm, that wasn't so bad.  I could totally do that again."  Well folks, I don't think, even if that happens, we will do this again, unless forced.  Jonny is making plans to divorce the Army.  And momma's quite happy about that.

So it's Friday night.  The song "Another Saturday night, and I ain't got nobody.  I got some money cuz I just got paid.  Oh how I wish I had someone to talk to.  I'm in an awful way," keeps coming to my mind.  Yes, I realize it's Friday.  I can't help what song pops in my head.  I baked an apple pie tonight.  Now that is a whole lotta fun for one Friday night you might say.  No, no I think just the right amount.  It smells so good.  I will have me a piece once finished updating my blog.

Jacob has been such a stinker lately, but an oh so cute stinker.  He is climbing and throwing and headbutting his way into the terrible twos.  Every morning I say, now let's not skip ahead son...save some for daddy. :)  He has been repeating things like crazy.  I say a word, he repeats it.  It is stinkin' cute.  And he gives me hugs.  Just out of the blue, he comes up and hugs me, with his hands around my back.  I can feel his little hands patting me on the back when he does it too.  Goodness kids know how to melt your heart....and then headbutt your nose so hard you have to check for bleeding.

Tonight I felt like I was on the funny farm while I was cooking supper.  I cut my finger, dropped crescent roll dough into the barbecue sauce, let a pan overflow all over the stove top, and managed to break a can opener that I payed $20 for just the other day.  All the while, Jacob is screaming at the kitchen gate because he's hungry "aaaaaaaahhhhh, ah, ah, eeeeeeeee."  And he throws things over the gate at me when he is mad too.  Where's Ashton when you need him.....

The new way to eat an orange.  I mean, who wants sticky hands?

I love brushing my teeth.

Me and Mama

Emergency Room

I had to take Jacob to the emergency room today, because he fell into the front door and busted open his lip.  Although he falls multiple times every day, this is the first time he was seriously injured.  After he fell, I scooped him up, and immediately went for paper towels to stop the bleeding.  I couldn't tell what exactly was bleeding at first, but it was outside and inside his mouth.  And there was a lot.  Once I realized he had a cut on his lip, I called my grandma who promptly came over to pick us up.  His lip stopped bleeding, and I wondered if I needed to take him in, but better safe than sorry I guess.  So, we road first class in my grandma's Cadillac to the emergency room.  By the way, we went to the new hospital in G.B., and I was quite impressed.  The nurse and doctor took a look at him and told me it wasn't in a place they usually liked to put stitches and that it would heal well on its own.  They didn't even check me in, just told me to have a nice day, and I was on my way.

This past weekend I made a trip out to see my family in Western Kansas...not the funnest place to be, but there was great company.  Right before I left, someone stole some possessions from my car, including a dvd player and an ipod.  I use the dvd player for Jacob, so he is entertained on the trip.  Needless to say, I could have used that dvd player on the 2 1/2 hour trip.  He cried a lot, and also threw everything on the floor I tried to give him.  Well, I can't pick things up while I'm driving, so most the time, he just cried.  It ended up being a great trip.  Even though I lost some expensive items, you might still be able to say that I am up, since a trip to the emergency room would have cost more than the possessions. 

Jonny is doing well, although he is really busy.  Really, really busy actually.  We were able to skype on Christmas, which was wonderful.  And he was able to call me on New Year's Eve.  Hopefully these next months will fly by.  I made about 30 resolutions this year, not kidding.  My sister and I came up with categories, and resolutions for each category.  Oh yeah, it was a big deal.  Now they are hanging on colored note cards in my room.  I will let you know that one of them is to update this blog, which, as you can see with your very own eyes, is at least 1 out of 30 resolutions that I have indeed completed.....at least for now.

Happy New Year!  Jonny comes home this year!

Here is a picture of Jacob's fat lip.  The cut goes all the way underneath, and you can see marks on this inside which is where he bit down.  I tried to clean around his mouth, but he wouldn't hold still.